IKATLONG KWENTO : THE BABY IN THE BAG
December 10, 2005, Saturday. I'm going to find it hard to forget that date.
Dec 10 : two days after Fiesta ng Antipolo, Nuestra Senora dela Paz y Buen Viaje.
Right after hospital duty.
It kind of felt good to go to church to pray right after duty, since katabi lang halos ng Soriano-Leyble Maternity and Medical Hospital ang simbahan ng Antipolo. We were praying and one of the Sang'gre heard a baby cry. The helpless voice came from behind us. Paglabas namin ng simbahan, sabi niya sa amin "Narinig niyo rin ba 'yun? May batang umiiyak." and she told us she thinks that the cry came from inside the bag (gumagalaw yung bag) of a young woman who was sitting behind us. When she felt that someone had noticed the "crying bag", the lady took off.
We searched all around the church compound but we never saw the lady, the bag nor the baby.
Ang dami kong mga tanong:
Magagawa ba iyon ng isang tao, isang babae, isang ina sa walang kamuang-muang na sanggol?
Kung sino man siya (one of us saw her dress but not her face naka pang-sexy daw na haltered floral top...and dangling earrings), bakit niya ginawa yun?
Anong balak niya sa bata?
Anong balak ng Diyos sa babaeng yun?
Ano kaya iniisip niya nung magpunta siya ng simbahan? Humihingi ng dispensa sa Diyos?
Ano kaya iniisip nung bata habang nasa loob siya ng chic white leather bag na yun? (I do believe that babies can think, too)
How long does it take for a baby to suffocate in a bag? Did it hurt?
Who could the lady be?
What great (or terrible, or mediocre or sweet or kind) things the baby could have done if s/he was given the chance to live?
Did her/his mother try to abort her/him?
Will anyone find that bag too late or not? How will it feel to be the one to find that baby in the bag?
Ang dami kong mga "sana":
Sana hindi na lang niya nilagay sa bag yung bata. Hindi ba niya alam na mamamatay yun?
Sana iniwan na lang niya sa simbahan, sa ospital, sa kalye...anywhere na mahahanap namin siya na umiiyak man, humihinga naman.
Kahit hindi na namin sana nakita yung babae, sana nakita namin yung bata at naidala namin sa authorities.
Sana nasabi namin sa pulis (but then again sino ang isusumbong namin? hindi namin madescribe ng husto yung babae kasi ang bilis niyang nawala)
Sana isahang insidente lang ito. Pero alam kong di mabilang ang ganitong insidente. Just use your imagination to interconnect these : reckless youth, unwanted pregnancies, runaway dads, failing finances, post-partum dysfunctions, broken hearts, parental pressure, rising statistics etc. Swerte kami at inalagaan kami ng maayos ng mga magulang namin...which leads to my last "sana"
Sana may nagawa kami.I know it was not in our hands. But i may just say that we did the best we could. The incident broke my heart. All I could do was pray.
I don't know what my reaction to this had I not been a midwife.
My next kwento will be about midwifery proper, its triumphs and perils, heartaches and joys. Midwives never enjoy these alone, there is always your coworkers, your superiors and most importantly, your patient with all the fears and hopes of an expectant mother.
I have been quite the loner for most of my life. I thought solitude was my only comfort. But being here in this profession made me reach out and realize, I am not alone, I need people and people need me.